My Heart is so Proud...

Just a few minutes ago my Mom told me that she wouldn't be able to take me to speech club tonight because of certain circumstances that would make it difficult for her. The instant she began to say so I determined to accept in stoic silence, to not be upset, and to go with the flow. As soon as I determined that, I blew it. My heart hardened to her explanation and her apology, I didn't hear a word of it, nor did I want to. A minute after she had left here I am, typing with tears streaming down my face at my utter sinfulness, my absolute inability to do any good thing.

This song by Laura Story is the lament of my broken heart right now, and I wish it was more often the cry of my decrepit flesh.

My heart is so proud.

My mind is so unfocused.

I see the things you do for me

as great things I have done.

And now you gently break me

and lovingly you take me

and hold me as my Father

and mold me as my Maker.

I ask you, "How many times will you pick me up,

when I keep on letting you down?

And each time I will fall short of your glory,

how far will forgiveness abound?"

And you answer, "My Child, I love you,

and as long as you're seeking my face

you'll walk in the power of my daily sufficient grace."

At times I may grow weak

and feel a bit discouraged.

Knowing that someone, somewhere

could do a better job.

But who am I to serve You?

I know I don't deserve You.

But that's the part that burns in my heart,

and keeps me hanging on.

I ask you, "How many times will you pick me up,

when I keep on letting you down?

And each time I will fall short of your glory,

how far will forgiveness abound?"

And you answer, "My Child, I love you,

and as long as you're seeking my face

you'll walk in the power of my daily sufficient grace."

You are so patient with me Lord.

As I walk with You I'm learning

what Your grace really means.

The price that I could never pay

was paid on Calvary.

So instead of trying repay You

I'm learning to simply obey You.

By giving up my life to You

for all that You've given to me.

I ask you, "How many times will you pick me up,

when I keep on letting you down?

And each time I will fall short of your glory,

how far will forgiveness abound?"

And you answer, "My Child, I love you,

and as long as you're seeking my face

you'll walk in the power of my daily sufficient grace."

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