I have never really been consumed with my looks, I have never really worried about them. This is only by the grace of God, *and I am so thankful that he did not make be beautiful,* so that I wouldn't have to concern myself with such things. But while I do not have to worry about adorning myself with things of the world, and being concerned with things of beauty I am afraid I have not succeeded in clothing myself with a gentle and quiet spirit.
I am a rather outgoing person. I have been told I talk too much, I have been told I smile too much, I have been told that I do many things too much. Oh for a gentle and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price! That I might listen more, and glean wisdom from the words of others. That I might learn to be quiet and attentive, instead of bubbly and outgoing, as I am often described.
I do not desire to completely do away with my God-given personality, but I think a bit more of a balance would be beneficial. As I grow older on the outside, I need to grow older on the inside. When one looks at me I don't think they would see a 15.5 year old young woman, instead many see a 13 year old girl. Maturity is a hard thing to achieve, but I wish to make it my goal to work towards in the coming year. A gentle and quiet spirit is of great price in the sight of God, therefore it is worth working toward, and one day attaining.
*By the above I am not denying the fact that I may be beautiful (as several people today have told me I am), I am only saying that I was made less beautiful than others, sparing me the temptation to rely on my looks instead of on God. Because I have nothing to boast of in the way of appearance I have one less thing to be prideful about, for which I am grateful. :)